Let me take a break

the flight is in less than 10 hrs. but i cant fall asleep...partly i am excited, and also just cant adjust from my past exam sleep disorder.
i guess that i wont be able to access this blog for a while, and more importantly, i wont have access to a lot other websites as well...
anyway. how should i deal with this sleepless night....
let me bubble a bit of weather.actually nyc's got similar climte as cixi...well i mean it rains a lot especially when it is damn cold. like this evening. we need to observe if ppl passing by holding an umbralla to decide if u can step out....but it is kinda funny tho.
anyway. i am so looking forward to weiwei's wedding now, which is gonna be a big reunion. i always enjoy the company of close friends. being around with friends and chatting can be a joyful experience.
tho i dont know whats the meaning to maintain a blog like this, ive kept on putting craps in it....maybe i should form a subject to it. hey, those who subsribed this blog. any suggestion on any topics is welcome...

又到回家时

见完老板,登完成绩,爬完梯,明天估计好好睡一觉,然后装箱回家.
太多的朋友,兄弟和姐妹,平时不得联系,再回家前夕却总是激动的想像的再见面时的情景.
大都已有自己的生活,也许不再有以前那样朝夕之时知晓各自生活的细节,但是总是觉得那是一种默契,总是会把门开在那里.

AVATAR

从来写不好影评,却总是要写,唉.....

今天大学中跑到stamford,却辗转在port chester看了新出炉的avatar. 早就盼了好几个月了,一个字,很赞.
故事本身就是找了一个虚幻的例子,好使得最近各种电脑特技有bso的机会.但是,...我却隐隐感到很多人性,或说是对生命的爱惜. (哦,这词用的太感性了)
那种和谐的感觉,还有那种在丛林中跳跃,伸展开自己去拥抱,或者被自然拥抱的感觉.当然最吸引的是起着飞龙的那种.
有的时候觉得,如果我在那里,我会怎么选择呢,选择留下来吗?那就是背叛自己的种族,离开?但是冥冥中又是one of the people.......

其实更多的是一种历史的重演,只是在最后人为的做成了历史没能完成的结局.

a gift for myself

After being a fan of Bruce Lee for years, I finally brought myself some documents I can touch.

http://www.amazon.com/Bruce-Lees-Fighting-Method-Complete/dp/0897501705/ref=pd_bxgy_b_img_c

Rather than just a performer, he is really a great martial artist and philosopher, who often drives me to read Taoism's Daodejing. That is also a gift, from one of my very best friends.

Quite often, you can see those guys in the gym with hug muscles, or you can see those runners with very weak upper bodies. One can easily go into one extreme or another, with the original purpose of physical practice out of your mind.

It is the balance! Balance of speed, power and endurance. It is a process of self-completeness, instead of showing others what you can accomplish.

PS: wish the snow could arrive soon. i wanna go snowboarding.

二奶翻身记

终于今天颤悠悠的问老板,是不是可以当俺老板.老板瞅瞅我,说不是一开始就是么???
我一惊,接着大喜,呵呵,总算跟上了~~~
话说这跟老板和什么似的,之前俞老师就说,能被包养是福,当时不理解,现在终于感受到了,终于被包上了,心中的喜悦,如indiana的大雪,没天没地的飘扬啊~~

NG

i've always wanted to subscribe National Geographic, which is a great magazine, especially with stunning pics.
and now....right, you got it.... i finally received the first issue of those in the following year, Oh Yeah!!
you can kindly request to borrow it, once i am done with it, but pick up only, hiehie~

火鸡

又到一年火鸡节.
和阿根一道在flushing饮茶,天南海北的聊,顺便八卦一些共同的朋友.其实对于我来说,这已经是最好的节日了.毕竟能在一起这样闲聊的旧友不多.
看到威的空间,说国内也时兴这个节了,不知道火鸡是否也有,虽说这是难吃极了的东西.
天气难得的暖和,颖也从boston过来赶集了,虽说没时间被照顾到,惭愧.
晚上sq去打牌了,就我一个人,本想看看书,无奈多年不遇的头疼像是找到了复发的理由,只好打开音乐,看看blog,瞅一瞅干女儿的近况,敲一些字.
发现其实最近写的很多,也许是research比较郁闷吧.
恩,放到the swan了,可是却不知道有什么事可以再接着写了.
121街路口再往里有一棵树,两边的楼很高,街很窄,努力的往上长,却够不到不远处的阳光.可好像这也保护了它一些from这初到的冬天,街口的树叶已经落尽........放到serenade了......她却还有些许绿叶蓬松的团在腰间,当然不免还挂缀着枯叶,不时的飞落几片,慢慢的飘向不远西边的街口,有几片恰好落在夕阳的裙边.
漫不经心的走过.......traumerai........脚边的叶子也会轻轻的贴着地面移动半寸.
唉,还有一月要回家料!

worlds greatest dad

晚上无聊，看了这部电影。
其实好的电影，不需要大成本，不需要很搞怪。像这样讲述故事的往往是鄙人喜欢的。
还记得robin的另一部dead poet society，也是很多争论，虽然我的看法老是和别人的不同。像这一次，它自己的网站上说 “the things you want most may not be the things that make you happy, and that being lonely is not necessarily the same as being alone.”
但觉得更多的是作者在借这种黑色的幽默嘲笑或是辱骂这个无知的社会。当然很多的排解那种不被理解的痛苦。那么多人趋之若鹜的东西，最后却只是一个可笑的理由。

算了，明天要早起，打住。。

workstation No.2

Just set up a simple work station in a forgotten corner in my apartment.
Surrounded by nothing, but a monitor, a lamp, and a refrigerator..lol..
Sometimes I have a hard time focusing....on even things like chatting....hopefully this will help.

28hr a day

back on track

ITBS seems to ease away now, finally!
I have been doing recovery running this week, and following Hadd's article, to improve my aerobic level before speed.
So mainly I tried to keep my HR at 155-160, which is too EASY to keep.
Last Sat. 4 mi,
Mon 4mi
Wed 5mi

Knees feel good so far. A little sore afterwards.
Special attention to stretching and landing on balls. Lower leg's muscle is a bit tight after running.

Bless

我有这么一个朋友，或说是我兄弟，他已有了一个儿子，当然还有一个美丽的妻子。

他们经历了很多，很久，当然还在经历着更多，只是希望不再久。

我想很少会有共同的朋友来到这里，但是今日知道他们的不易，却无法帮助，只能在这里留下只言片语。

有时候无奈却不知朋友在何方，有时候知道朋友在那儿，却也知道只有靠自己。

就祝我的朋友们一切顺利吧，不奢望这次回国能再相见，但临近的日期却不免让我想起那么朋友们。

HOWTO use cunix and its software

It is a tutorial for my friends, who have be asking me for a while.

As many of you know, that you can access the Linux server if you are a student in CU. And there are a few softwares you can access via that.

1. download and install putty (assume you are using windows, otherwise you probably knew this already), which is a ssh client.
2. install Xming, which is X-server for putty, or you may wanna call it graphic support.
3. open putty, and click session tab on the right, enter the server's name: cunix.columbia.edu. use SSH, and then on your left again: connection->SSH->X11 click enable X11 forwarding.
4. go back to session tab, save your session setting and load. Now you are on your way to use cunix~
5. you can also use sftp to manipulate the files on the server. Notice everything we put in the public_html is accessible for anyone, unless you change the permission setting.
(This is also the place you can hold and publish your own website, though the storage is tiny....)
6a. okey, okey, now software. but all you need to do is just type "matlab" or "mathematica" after the cursor. wait for a few seconds, and your familiar software interface will pop out.
6b. i f you are fine with terminal and dont need the graphic interface of those software, just don't check " enable X11 forwarding" in step 3.

Have fun with it, my friends~

postcard

许久了，才收到明信片，倒是hw这次去montreal带来的第一时间到了。
之前以为已经收到了那张小卡片，但是翻箱倒柜就是找不见，以为是给自己弄丢了，因为记得是看着这卡片被写好，又寄出的，虽然都没被允许看写了什么，但记忆里确被我早早的收下了。而一段时间后不见了，那定是被自己弄丢的了。却也不好告诉人家说再要一张，或说是没收到，估计会讨来一阵白眼。
不想今天总算是收到了，一看就是经历了千山万水，字迹已经被磨的有些模糊，最重要的是有一块地方仿佛被胶带粘掉了，索性只掉了半排，还能依稀猜出到底写了什么，算是万幸。

话说自己出门旅行，大多来了又走了，只把旅途化作记忆藏起来，说这样偷不走，烧不掉，从来没有寄明信片的恶习。就算买，也是逼老友所迫。但看到收信人是自己的明信片，读一读字里行间的心情，却也能带来一丝愉快。这样虽然自己不能同去，或者自己已在别处，却也能体会或者回味一下写信时的快乐。

只是不知道，自己下次出门时是否会记得捎一张明信片呢？恐怕还是会忘记的。就在此，该谢的现谢过，该sorry的，以后再说吧。（我知道你在看，嘿嘿）

reserach之初体验

不知道出了110的人，别人是否见了这个题目也会一笑。

最近常常想起杨田blog里提起的research的体验，那种半夜睡到一半，突然起身，以为自己解出来了，然后醒来却不记得了。或者后来生怕忘了，起来写下来，第二天发现是错的。或者是马上验证，发现是错的。。。。。反反复复，跌宕起伏，小心肝扑扑的承受打击，以至于现在晚上有新的idea，都不敢往下想，生怕验证发现错的，却带来什么噩梦。。

只是希望这次是对的，哎，2周没见老板的，一定要赶些东西出来阿。

最近很多朋友生日，还有要去看落叶，幸好我还挺积极，不然就要伤时，伤秋，伤落叶了。不能太文艺，这不好，就像不喜欢在P里面加dx，是prob就是prob，不用装pdf了

独自的快乐

最近有朋友吃惊的说,你竟然有blog,呵呵,是啊,新朋友,虽说也是挺好的朋友,也都快一年半了,但他无法看到我以前那些blog了,呵呵

有的时候想,这些blog,到底写给谁看的呢,也许真的没有人过来看.

刚搬过来的时候,还有想锋哥这样的朋友过来,后来更新的慢了,他们想毕也就忘了,到是我最近又开始慢慢的写了起来.也许是一种恢复的预兆吧.

开始的时候还挺关心有没有人留言之类的,慢慢也不在乎了,现在到时自己比较喜欢这样的方式,随键书写,呵呵

就像跑步,一个人一路跑着,很少能有合适的跑伴,但是一个人跑的乐趣,却也是其他运动所不能体会的.

这里也算是试图体会一下什么嗒的自动发笑吧.

SD

informs回来,就忙着监考,meeting

终于周五了,只觉着屋子里才暖和,外面已是冬天的雨了,这一点倒是很像杭州

san diego真是个让人喜欢的地方,单说早上在海边跑跑步,或者晚上在闲逛扫扫街,都是相当惬意

虽说最后没有下水,也没能埋在沙滩下,但总算是骑了久违的车

飞机很慢,有的时候却希望再慢些

在这个最不像美国的城市,又要开始干活了.....

fun run

今天校长无聊,每年一次的5k晨跑,为了那一件免费的T-shirt, 俺一大早就起了.
一开跑很快,是太快了,很快就喘的不行,忘记带表了,早起就稀里糊涂的..大概有8-0mph的速度吧.
有一群小本,半裸奔的,跑的还挺快,我就夹在中间,慢慢的一个个的超,不过这样有好处,就是每每经过路边的mm,她们都会尖叫, 可惜没有mm这么跑-_-!!

最后跑完快吐了,yunan跑在前面,大概四十几名,我大概在60名吧.有几个超牛的,感觉是10mph跑的,叹服啊.

最后成功拿到T-shirt,嘿嘿

shoes

昨天去附近跑步专卖买鞋,因为琢磨了很久,想来想去,应该是鞋子不适合
去了那里,不是最专业的那种,但对我来说已经够了
先赤脚跑了一段,然后穿鞋,店员都供着腰盯着俺脚底......
本来想看完,然后上网自己找deal,但是觉着实在对不住那店员,碍不住脸,就买了一双
今天虽然累,但是忍不住去跑了3迈,itb果然没以前那么疼,恩,这样就不心疼一点,呵呵
还有不到2周....真的不行.......再说,这周努力点练!

itbs

最近跑的不多,上周末下雨,结果没长跑,就在周一跑了,幸好夏天比较闲.
但是竟然在跑步机上都会itb出问题,当晚冰敷了好久,昨天 追风药油一阵猛涂,今天去easy run,感觉还行,但是好像stretch太过了,跑完以后膝盖更不舒服......现在正在冰敷ing....
发现简易版冰袋做法,就是那那种洗碗,或说是做实验的橡皮手套,把口一扎,里面放冰块,呵呵,还行......

ps: itbs里面的itb就是大腿 边上一条筋,ms一下子跑太多,那筋会压迫膝盖,然后膝盖就肿了.....

sunday long run

2nd round long run in central park
i wore my new shoes NB805. they are great shoes, forefeet landing and ultra light, however, i got a few blisters after the running....

speed is about 7-7.5mph, for about 11mi. overall, i am glad with this. however, this ain't enough to guarantee the same condition on Sep. 20, which is the day of my first half marathon in Queens.

ps: just saw a post from mitbbs, someone just recommend keep the same pace when running uphill.....that's gonna be crazy, i still remember during the second lap in the park, i can barely lift my leg when facing uphills, sigh.....

不能停阿

一个周末。。。。恩，一共4天没跑，昨天去riversise跑了4迈就喘的不行了，看来还得加强心肺。
买了nb805，说是作speeding的鞋，但是跟很薄，很forefoot，所以感觉不错。

以后在这里闲着就多写一点跑步的吧。

ps：9月底第一个半马，要认真练了。

近况

话说不来这里也好几个月了,放眼望去,荒草凋零,除了搜索引擎,基本没人来这里了.
回国发现,其实blogger已经能上了,但是介于之前的被封,估计都没啥人气,有无聊时间写博的,都被各种国内网站抢了,此乃闲话,只是本来这里写的就是闲话,就不妨一说
话说过年回家,走访各地xdjm,骗吃骗喝,还有好些朋友要不没时间了,要不联系不到.只是发现自己还是不会喝,一两红酒下去就找不到北了,不像小甜甜那样还能想算法,只能回想之前ms还比这强些,至少还能通过特意功能将酒精从少商穴逼出来.......
最近又开始接着看书,research就是一遍遍的re 着search,丫的我还能怎么样
回家一趟,膘没长上,到时牙拔了一颗,不过发现留下的洞竟然有储存功能,改天藏些肉排回去做宵夜
今天头脑发热,6点起来去念了2小时的经,算是正式回归红血暴气的状态,这里除了市场之外自己也需要physical stimulus.
昨天算是情人节,被祝贺了2遍,然后就和两个有妇之夫及另一个兄台一起边看球边打牌,中间被另一个刚有归属的兄弟打了2次酱油,发现倒也不错.只是那两位兄台打到半响都拿起电话回家慰抚一番,深刻感受到作为一个单身地美好

另,最近没的车开,开了会极品过瘾,可惜不知道下次还有没有人敢做我的车了,sigh.

Benjamin Button

大家算一算,这种被劈中的概率有多大:
http://www.lightningsafety.com/nlsi_pls/probability.html
根据那里的假设,在us,一个人一年被劈中的概率是1/280000
根据"Demographics of U.S. Lightning Casualties and Damages from 1959 - 1994"的结论,被劈中的人中84%是男性,16%是女的,假设男女在us各半.
假设这个老人活到80岁之前被劈了7次
所以这个小概率时间的可能性是:
(80 choose 7)*(b^7)*(1-b)^{80-7}, where b=2*84%*1/280000,是男的在us一年被劈中的概率
所以这个在80岁之前被劈中7次的概率是1.09405E-46
这是难得一见啊

回家水记

回家已经十余日,骚扰了很多朋友,虽然饭局挺多,但是却没来得及好好吃,不过还好,这下那智齿的麻烦就算是永久性的拜拜了
回到家,感觉就一个字,冷,两脚冰冷,吃完晚饭就想着热水泡脚.加上整天的阴雨,算是典型的冬季了
只是不曾去zjg转转,稍有遗憾
虽说只是2年有余,但是慈溪的变化确让我很多时候已不知何处,朋友们的变化更甚,工作的工作,结婚的结婚,新的代沟已然形成,像我这般毫无良心地念书的已剩不了几个...
到时买了半箱子闲书,闲来翻翻,进了书店依然旧习难改,加上满眼望去,6元书店的书简直就是白菜价,呼啦啦就捧回一摞.可惜正经带来的paper却不曾翻阅,惭愧.
各路朋友,还有好些却联系不上,或者如琼姐这样一再错过,惭愧,希望剩下还有些日子,能聊聊,呵呵
还有几个不日便要副考场的朋友,在此加油呐喊了